unable

BY hannah turner, yale ’24

i sit alone in a corner of the hospital

    crying out in pain and fear

    unable to stomach the green mush they gave me.

i wonder how much longer this will go on

a few days

a week

the pain 

dragging me 

through the days

to the hospital

and on the plane back home. 

i wonder at how weak and strong 

i am

my body

limited

frustrated

tired  

my body

is working hard

is healing

is being healed.

i wonder.

i sit alone but they are in the other room

waiting

with me

there is

Christ

who was

alone

crying out in pain and fear

but trusted

infinitely able to do all things

but surrendered His abilities

for me

for us.

SOURCES

[1] Nick Batzig. “What Is Maundy Thursday?” https://www.ligonier.org/learn/articles/what-is-maundy-thursday

[2] Antiochian Orthodox Christian Archdiocese of North America. “Prayers of Preparation Before Holy Communion.” http://ww1.antiochian.org/orthodox-prayers/preparation-holy-communion#:~:text=Of%20thy%20Mystic%20Supper%2C%20O,O%20Lord%2C%20in%20thy%20Kingdom.

[3] F. L. Cross and E. A. Livingstone. The Oxford Dictionary of the Christian Church, 3 ed. “Sheer Thursday.” https://www.oxfordreference.com/display/10.1093/oi/authority.20110803100500571