BY BROOKE LINDSEY
In the Waiting by Kina Grannis
I’ve been waiting for answers
I’ve been waiting a long, long time
If I open the door won’t you come inside?
My heart’s begging for mercy
Hopeful and doubting and torn inside?
And all this time
I’ve been staring at the minute hand
Oh what a crime
That I can’t seem to understand that life is in the waiting
I’ve been working on patience
Trying to trust in the timing of my tiny existence
I sat still in the twilight
I found peace in the quiet things
How could I wish away all the in between?
And I find there’s no knowing of a right time
No it could keep you waiting all night for it
So hold tight
Don’t lose sleep over the half-life
Know that everything is alright
Just like it is
1 Zechariah 9:9 (ESV)
2 Revelation 3:20 (ESV)
3 Lamentations 3:25-26 (ESV)
4 Habakkuk 1:5 (ESV)
About In the Waiting
Southern California-based singer-songwriter Kina Grannis knows a thing or two about waiting. During her 2015 world tour, she and her bandmates were stuck in Jakarta, Indonesia for 100 days due to problems with their work visas. Reflecting upon the experience, she says, “I write in my journal that if we don’t go home soon I’m not sure I’ll ever feel happy again. That I’m scared I might have a mental breakdown if it goes on much longer… We came to play one show and now we are facing possible jail time, unable to work, unable to leave. How is this possible? ‘How?’ is a question we eventually learn to stop asking.”1
The question of how awful things could possibly happen is a constant refrain in the human mind. Grannis’ album offers no easy answers, but accompanies us in our own questions and doubts. The anxiety of uncertainty, frustration of waiting, and fleetingness of life are all themes featured in her 2018 album In the Waiting. Listening through the album feels like a journey of catharsis, as one must learn to reckon with becoming so attached to a world that is so temporary and often feels lonely. Our most trying experiences are a constant reminder that “You have to choose happiness. Every day. Over and over again. Don’t wait for it to find you.”2 So, too, must Christian believers learn that God does not offer easy answers to His mysteries, but in living day-to-day “there is nothing better for them to be joyful and do good as long as they live.”3
“In the Waiting” is the third track on Kina Grannis’ album of the same name.
1 Grannis, K. (2016, June 10). 100 Days In Jakarta [Blog post]. Retrieved from http://kinagrannis.tumblr.com/post/145697228252/100-days-in-jakarta
3 Ecclesiastes 3:12 (ESV)